Well, my weeks holiday is almost up, and I've been quite busy, in the house. Spring cleaning.
Mark began the non smoking thing this week, I think he has found it quite difficult, but yesterday he actually went all day without a ciggie...well done babe, it does get easier.
Last month I bought series 1 of Heroes, I had never seen it before, well this week we decided to try it, and OMG its fantastic, I love it. So looked on Amazon and managed to get the complete series 2 for £14.99, how good is that :-) So I am a happy girly hehe.
Back to work tomorrow, and I cant wait, yes that sounds so sad, but I love my job, I love working with Daryl, and I think we're off to the pictures tomorrow so that should be fun :-)
This post is a bit boring I know, but hey, its better than having a go at people lol.
Friday, 15 May 2009
Monday, 11 May 2009
Well Well Well,
I recieved a memo earlier from the domme, this is what it said:
"Please don't bother to contact us again as we won't agree on this and it's upsetting you"
Errr no, it isn't at all upsetting me, I contacted these people because we had had an argument months ago, and I thought maybe, just maybe we could all be mates again...How fucking wrong was I, the first memo's seemed quite genuine, they really seemed pleased I had contacted them, but then the msn chats, twat simon got us into a 3 way convo, and at some point I'd called him simon, and his domme said "Simone likes to be known as Simone" I said that twat simon knew how I felt about calling him that, and I couldnt do that. And it was left at that.
Then a big change today.
Twat simon doesn't have a mind of his own, he need to hide behind his domme (yes small d on purpose). He cries if anyone so much as dare upset him, he cries if people don't like him, (which I know there are lots). He can't argue his point, he needs dommy to do it for him, he is her 'kitty' but he talks like a fucking baby, and he is a sad twat who needs to fucking grow up.
**Big breath**
That's so much better now I have got that all out. Unless I need to release anything about the Twat cats again, these will be my last words on the subject.
"Please don't bother to contact us again as we won't agree on this and it's upsetting you"
Errr no, it isn't at all upsetting me, I contacted these people because we had had an argument months ago, and I thought maybe, just maybe we could all be mates again...How fucking wrong was I, the first memo's seemed quite genuine, they really seemed pleased I had contacted them, but then the msn chats, twat simon got us into a 3 way convo, and at some point I'd called him simon, and his domme said "Simone likes to be known as Simone" I said that twat simon knew how I felt about calling him that, and I couldnt do that. And it was left at that.
Then a big change today.
Twat simon doesn't have a mind of his own, he need to hide behind his domme (yes small d on purpose). He cries if anyone so much as dare upset him, he cries if people don't like him, (which I know there are lots). He can't argue his point, he needs dommy to do it for him, he is her 'kitty' but he talks like a fucking baby, and he is a sad twat who needs to fucking grow up.
**Big breath**
That's so much better now I have got that all out. Unless I need to release anything about the Twat cats again, these will be my last words on the subject.
Making friends
Well its monday again, and should be weigh in day, but I'm not going, I have eaten what I like in the past week, but today I start again, and won't worry about how much I lose or don't lose, because if I stick with it I will get to my goal sooner than later.
Life is too short to be argueing with people don't you think? So this week I made an effort to make up with a couple of people I had argued with, they are online mates, I have never met them.
They are Dominate and submissive, the submissive calls himself Simone, but I have never called him that, prefering to call him Simon. Well this morning I recieved a memo from Iona (his Domme) saying that simon is upset that I dont call him Simone, oh yes and he is also Iona's 'kitty' and also I wont accept his kitty persona. The reason I wont accept the kitty persona is that when he talks in kitty talk its babyish, now in my opinion, if she likes this then thats fantastic, but please don't expect others to like this. I have told them both this in the past, but obviously they still have the need to moan about it.
It makes me wonder if I have done the right thing in getting in contact with them again.
I know they will read this, and I'm sure it will upset them, but I can only be honest, and If you don't like what I write here then don't read it...simple.
Life is too short to be argueing with people don't you think? So this week I made an effort to make up with a couple of people I had argued with, they are online mates, I have never met them.
They are Dominate and submissive, the submissive calls himself Simone, but I have never called him that, prefering to call him Simon. Well this morning I recieved a memo from Iona (his Domme) saying that simon is upset that I dont call him Simone, oh yes and he is also Iona's 'kitty' and also I wont accept his kitty persona. The reason I wont accept the kitty persona is that when he talks in kitty talk its babyish, now in my opinion, if she likes this then thats fantastic, but please don't expect others to like this. I have told them both this in the past, but obviously they still have the need to moan about it.
It makes me wonder if I have done the right thing in getting in contact with them again.
I know they will read this, and I'm sure it will upset them, but I can only be honest, and If you don't like what I write here then don't read it...simple.
Tuesday, 5 May 2009
What do I have to do?
Last night was weigh in night, and I have been following the diet to the book, no cheating at all..I lost a fucking pound, how crap is that. I didnt stay to the meeting as was too upset, so came home.
I ate what I had missed for 2 weeks last night...Spag bol, kitkats, toast. And no I don't feel guilty, and yes it made me feel a lot better.
I will start the diet again today, but I wont be going to fat club next week, I'll go the week in 2 weeks time.
I ate what I had missed for 2 weeks last night...Spag bol, kitkats, toast. And no I don't feel guilty, and yes it made me feel a lot better.
I will start the diet again today, but I wont be going to fat club next week, I'll go the week in 2 weeks time.
Carrying on from this blog http://whispersmoan.blogspot.com/2009/03/arrggghh.html (not sure how to make it smaller sorry). The other day I went into work, and she is stood there with the smallest shorts on, she look ridiculous, now I dont want you thinking that I was jealous because I can assure you I'm not. She has done well in the last year and has lost a lot of weight, but she has not got the legs for shorts, I just looked at her and shook my head...yes she saw me and to be honest I don't give a fuck.
I just wanted to hit her. Usually I can tolerate her, but this week would have been my wrong week if I wasnt going through the menopause, and on my wrong weeks, I cant stand her. And its weird because its only her I'm like this with. I think she wants a word with me, so I have made a list of things that she irritates me with lol ie -
1 - Copying my daughter in almost everything (Clothes,jewelery, music,things she says).
2 - Calling daryl the young man we care for chap...all the fucking time HIS NAME IS DARYL.
3 - Not listening to anyone.
4 - Thinking she is always right.
Well you get the gist of it.
I have to go now, my daughter needs to take her dwarf hamster to the vets.
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Pickle the hamster had to be put down, she had had a stroke and her body was shutting down :-(
Tuesday, 28 April 2009
Fucked off!!
Well as I said yesterday it was weigh in last night. I had a mixture of excitement and being nervous.
My daughter went first and she lost an amazing 5 1/2lbs well done my darling Then I stepped up, and lost a measly 3 1/2. now I know people are probably saying thats really good, but I was so disappointed, yep and I cried, I felt a right twat.
But having thought about it, I may be due on (if I still had periods) because I've been very emotional this week.
My Mark cooked me steak and chips when I got in last night....I am allowed that so don't shout at me lol.
I felt a bit better after But today is a new day, I will carry on with the diet because I know this time next year I will be a lot lighter than I am now.
My daughter went first and she lost an amazing 5 1/2lbs well done my darling Then I stepped up, and lost a measly 3 1/2. now I know people are probably saying thats really good, but I was so disappointed, yep and I cried, I felt a right twat.
But having thought about it, I may be due on (if I still had periods) because I've been very emotional this week.
My Mark cooked me steak and chips when I got in last night....I am allowed that so don't shout at me lol.
I felt a bit better after But today is a new day, I will carry on with the diet because I know this time next year I will be a lot lighter than I am now.
Monday, 27 April 2009
Eating healthy!
I didn't start slimming world on that Thursday like I said, because it would have meant me going every other week, which is no good as I need support every week. So I started last Monday.
My daughter started with me, and I have been good all week, I have eaten so much more than I usually do, but all good stuff, tons of fruit, veg, and salad. I don't hate these foods at all, in fact I prefer them, I guess I always went for the easy route when it came to eating.. ie, takeaways, lots of bread, biscuits and so on, but now I have to think about what I eat, work out what I eat, and savour it when I eat it, instead of just scoffing it.
I was a bit pee'd off last night..I am allowed 15 syns a day, and I saved all 15 so I could have a 4 finger kit kat, which is 11 syns, the first finger was all bloody chocolate, now usually that would be great lol but when dieting noooooo. I bet it added 8 more syns to the bloody thing.
Tonight is weigh in night, so keep your fingers crossed :-) I'll update later.
My daughter started with me, and I have been good all week, I have eaten so much more than I usually do, but all good stuff, tons of fruit, veg, and salad. I don't hate these foods at all, in fact I prefer them, I guess I always went for the easy route when it came to eating.. ie, takeaways, lots of bread, biscuits and so on, but now I have to think about what I eat, work out what I eat, and savour it when I eat it, instead of just scoffing it.
I was a bit pee'd off last night..I am allowed 15 syns a day, and I saved all 15 so I could have a 4 finger kit kat, which is 11 syns, the first finger was all bloody chocolate, now usually that would be great lol but when dieting noooooo. I bet it added 8 more syns to the bloody thing.
Tonight is weigh in night, so keep your fingers crossed :-) I'll update later.
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
Fat cow!
Yep thats what I am, a fat cow. Paul McKenna didn't work.
I gave up smoking and now I am putting on loads of weight, I was big to start with but now since the 28th Feb I have put on over a stone, yup 1 bloody stone, over!
I have always faught <<<(is that a word) with either dieting or giving up smoking, usually dieting won, but alas I have never been good at dieting, love my food too much, so as the years passed, I have eaten too much added with smoking too much, and as I have got older, (and not liking to admit that :-( ) It'S now got to the stage where health comes into play much more.
So the smoking went, and I have no problem with cravings, so thats all gone, finished, forgotten. Now the dieting has to come into play, I don't exercise, and eat way too much, so this week it will change, on Thursday I will join Slimming World, for the 5th or 6th time, but this time I know I can do it, If I can give up the weed in favour of health, then I can change my way of eating, and do more exercise.
On Thursday I will put my starting weight here...Gulp! And will do it out in the open, so people can read it.
I gave up smoking and now I am putting on loads of weight, I was big to start with but now since the 28th Feb I have put on over a stone, yup 1 bloody stone, over!
I have always faught <<<(is that a word) with either dieting or giving up smoking, usually dieting won, but alas I have never been good at dieting, love my food too much, so as the years passed, I have eaten too much added with smoking too much, and as I have got older, (and not liking to admit that :-( ) It'S now got to the stage where health comes into play much more.
So the smoking went, and I have no problem with cravings, so thats all gone, finished, forgotten. Now the dieting has to come into play, I don't exercise, and eat way too much, so this week it will change, on Thursday I will join Slimming World, for the 5th or 6th time, but this time I know I can do it, If I can give up the weed in favour of health, then I can change my way of eating, and do more exercise.
On Thursday I will put my starting weight here...Gulp! And will do it out in the open, so people can read it.
Even if its just one person that reads it, it will help me, I'm sure.
Wish me luck :-D xx
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