What do I have to do?

Last night was weigh in night, and I have been following the diet to the book, no cheating at all..I lost a fucking pound, how crap is that. I didnt stay to the meeting as was too upset, so came home.

I ate what I had missed for 2 weeks last night...Spag bol, kitkats, toast. And no I don't feel guilty, and yes it made me feel a lot better.

I will start the diet again today, but I wont be going to fat club next week, I'll go the week in 2 weeks time.

Carrying on from this blog http://whispersmoan.blogspot.com/2009/03/arrggghh.html (not sure how to make it smaller sorry). The other day I went into work, and she is stood there with the smallest shorts on, she look ridiculous, now I dont want you thinking that I was jealous because I can assure you I'm not. She has done well in the last year and has lost a lot of weight, but she has not got the legs for shorts, I just looked at her and shook my head...yes she saw me and to be honest I don't give a fuck.

I just wanted to hit her. Usually I can tolerate her, but this week would have been my wrong week if I wasnt going through the menopause, and on my wrong weeks, I cant stand her. And its weird because its only her I'm like this with. I think she wants a word with me, so I have made a list of things that she irritates me with lol ie -

1 - Copying my daughter in almost everything (Clothes,jewelery, music,things she says).

2 - Calling daryl the young man we care for chap...all the fucking time HIS NAME IS DARYL.

3 - Not listening to anyone.

4 - Thinking she is always right.

Well you get the gist of it.

I have to go now, my daughter needs to take her dwarf hamster to the vets.

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Pickle the hamster had to be put down, she had had a stroke and her body was shutting down :-(