This is the first time I've had chance to catch up here this week. It was fat club on monday, first time I've been for a couple of weeks, so not expecting great things lol, but I lost 2lb's :-). Better than putting on.
Went to a Manual Handling refresher this week, omg that was so boring, most of it wasn't even for us, just the slings and hoisting was our thing, which we do everyday, so nothing new there, but hey it has to be done, and its out the way for another year.
We're on our last disc of season 1 of Heroes, if you havent seen it, you really must, its great, my favourite character is Hiro, he's wonderful :-).
Oh I forgot to say, I went to the Manual Handling thing with my daughter and the irritating one lol, and to be honest we had a laugh, so I didnt get any stress from her....it won't last lol.
Friday, 22 May 2009
Friday, 15 May 2009
My week
Well, my weeks holiday is almost up, and I've been quite busy, in the house. Spring cleaning.
Mark began the non smoking thing this week, I think he has found it quite difficult, but yesterday he actually went all day without a ciggie...well done babe, it does get easier.
Last month I bought series 1 of Heroes, I had never seen it before, well this week we decided to try it, and OMG its fantastic, I love it. So looked on Amazon and managed to get the complete series 2 for £14.99, how good is that :-) So I am a happy girly hehe.
Back to work tomorrow, and I cant wait, yes that sounds so sad, but I love my job, I love working with Daryl, and I think we're off to the pictures tomorrow so that should be fun :-)
This post is a bit boring I know, but hey, its better than having a go at people lol.
Mark began the non smoking thing this week, I think he has found it quite difficult, but yesterday he actually went all day without a ciggie...well done babe, it does get easier.
Last month I bought series 1 of Heroes, I had never seen it before, well this week we decided to try it, and OMG its fantastic, I love it. So looked on Amazon and managed to get the complete series 2 for £14.99, how good is that :-) So I am a happy girly hehe.
Back to work tomorrow, and I cant wait, yes that sounds so sad, but I love my job, I love working with Daryl, and I think we're off to the pictures tomorrow so that should be fun :-)
This post is a bit boring I know, but hey, its better than having a go at people lol.
Monday, 11 May 2009
Well Well Well,
I recieved a memo earlier from the domme, this is what it said:
"Please don't bother to contact us again as we won't agree on this and it's upsetting you"
Errr no, it isn't at all upsetting me, I contacted these people because we had had an argument months ago, and I thought maybe, just maybe we could all be mates again...How fucking wrong was I, the first memo's seemed quite genuine, they really seemed pleased I had contacted them, but then the msn chats, twat simon got us into a 3 way convo, and at some point I'd called him simon, and his domme said "Simone likes to be known as Simone" I said that twat simon knew how I felt about calling him that, and I couldnt do that. And it was left at that.
Then a big change today.
Twat simon doesn't have a mind of his own, he need to hide behind his domme (yes small d on purpose). He cries if anyone so much as dare upset him, he cries if people don't like him, (which I know there are lots). He can't argue his point, he needs dommy to do it for him, he is her 'kitty' but he talks like a fucking baby, and he is a sad twat who needs to fucking grow up.
**Big breath**
That's so much better now I have got that all out. Unless I need to release anything about the Twat cats again, these will be my last words on the subject.
"Please don't bother to contact us again as we won't agree on this and it's upsetting you"
Errr no, it isn't at all upsetting me, I contacted these people because we had had an argument months ago, and I thought maybe, just maybe we could all be mates again...How fucking wrong was I, the first memo's seemed quite genuine, they really seemed pleased I had contacted them, but then the msn chats, twat simon got us into a 3 way convo, and at some point I'd called him simon, and his domme said "Simone likes to be known as Simone" I said that twat simon knew how I felt about calling him that, and I couldnt do that. And it was left at that.
Then a big change today.
Twat simon doesn't have a mind of his own, he need to hide behind his domme (yes small d on purpose). He cries if anyone so much as dare upset him, he cries if people don't like him, (which I know there are lots). He can't argue his point, he needs dommy to do it for him, he is her 'kitty' but he talks like a fucking baby, and he is a sad twat who needs to fucking grow up.
**Big breath**
That's so much better now I have got that all out. Unless I need to release anything about the Twat cats again, these will be my last words on the subject.
Making friends
Well its monday again, and should be weigh in day, but I'm not going, I have eaten what I like in the past week, but today I start again, and won't worry about how much I lose or don't lose, because if I stick with it I will get to my goal sooner than later.
Life is too short to be argueing with people don't you think? So this week I made an effort to make up with a couple of people I had argued with, they are online mates, I have never met them.
They are Dominate and submissive, the submissive calls himself Simone, but I have never called him that, prefering to call him Simon. Well this morning I recieved a memo from Iona (his Domme) saying that simon is upset that I dont call him Simone, oh yes and he is also Iona's 'kitty' and also I wont accept his kitty persona. The reason I wont accept the kitty persona is that when he talks in kitty talk its babyish, now in my opinion, if she likes this then thats fantastic, but please don't expect others to like this. I have told them both this in the past, but obviously they still have the need to moan about it.
It makes me wonder if I have done the right thing in getting in contact with them again.
I know they will read this, and I'm sure it will upset them, but I can only be honest, and If you don't like what I write here then don't read it...simple.
Life is too short to be argueing with people don't you think? So this week I made an effort to make up with a couple of people I had argued with, they are online mates, I have never met them.
They are Dominate and submissive, the submissive calls himself Simone, but I have never called him that, prefering to call him Simon. Well this morning I recieved a memo from Iona (his Domme) saying that simon is upset that I dont call him Simone, oh yes and he is also Iona's 'kitty' and also I wont accept his kitty persona. The reason I wont accept the kitty persona is that when he talks in kitty talk its babyish, now in my opinion, if she likes this then thats fantastic, but please don't expect others to like this. I have told them both this in the past, but obviously they still have the need to moan about it.
It makes me wonder if I have done the right thing in getting in contact with them again.
I know they will read this, and I'm sure it will upset them, but I can only be honest, and If you don't like what I write here then don't read it...simple.
Tuesday, 5 May 2009
What do I have to do?
Last night was weigh in night, and I have been following the diet to the book, no cheating at all..I lost a fucking pound, how crap is that. I didnt stay to the meeting as was too upset, so came home.
I ate what I had missed for 2 weeks last night...Spag bol, kitkats, toast. And no I don't feel guilty, and yes it made me feel a lot better.
I will start the diet again today, but I wont be going to fat club next week, I'll go the week in 2 weeks time.
I ate what I had missed for 2 weeks last night...Spag bol, kitkats, toast. And no I don't feel guilty, and yes it made me feel a lot better.
I will start the diet again today, but I wont be going to fat club next week, I'll go the week in 2 weeks time.
Carrying on from this blog http://whispersmoan.blogspot.com/2009/03/arrggghh.html (not sure how to make it smaller sorry). The other day I went into work, and she is stood there with the smallest shorts on, she look ridiculous, now I dont want you thinking that I was jealous because I can assure you I'm not. She has done well in the last year and has lost a lot of weight, but she has not got the legs for shorts, I just looked at her and shook my head...yes she saw me and to be honest I don't give a fuck.
I just wanted to hit her. Usually I can tolerate her, but this week would have been my wrong week if I wasnt going through the menopause, and on my wrong weeks, I cant stand her. And its weird because its only her I'm like this with. I think she wants a word with me, so I have made a list of things that she irritates me with lol ie -
1 - Copying my daughter in almost everything (Clothes,jewelery, music,things she says).
2 - Calling daryl the young man we care for chap...all the fucking time HIS NAME IS DARYL.
3 - Not listening to anyone.
4 - Thinking she is always right.
Well you get the gist of it.
I have to go now, my daughter needs to take her dwarf hamster to the vets.
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Pickle the hamster had to be put down, she had had a stroke and her body was shutting down :-(
Tuesday, 28 April 2009
Fucked off!!
Well as I said yesterday it was weigh in last night. I had a mixture of excitement and being nervous.
My daughter went first and she lost an amazing 5 1/2lbs well done my darling Then I stepped up, and lost a measly 3 1/2. now I know people are probably saying thats really good, but I was so disappointed, yep and I cried, I felt a right twat.
But having thought about it, I may be due on (if I still had periods) because I've been very emotional this week.
My Mark cooked me steak and chips when I got in last night....I am allowed that so don't shout at me lol.
I felt a bit better after But today is a new day, I will carry on with the diet because I know this time next year I will be a lot lighter than I am now.
My daughter went first and she lost an amazing 5 1/2lbs well done my darling Then I stepped up, and lost a measly 3 1/2. now I know people are probably saying thats really good, but I was so disappointed, yep and I cried, I felt a right twat.
But having thought about it, I may be due on (if I still had periods) because I've been very emotional this week.
My Mark cooked me steak and chips when I got in last night....I am allowed that so don't shout at me lol.
I felt a bit better after But today is a new day, I will carry on with the diet because I know this time next year I will be a lot lighter than I am now.
Monday, 27 April 2009
Eating healthy!
I didn't start slimming world on that Thursday like I said, because it would have meant me going every other week, which is no good as I need support every week. So I started last Monday.
My daughter started with me, and I have been good all week, I have eaten so much more than I usually do, but all good stuff, tons of fruit, veg, and salad. I don't hate these foods at all, in fact I prefer them, I guess I always went for the easy route when it came to eating.. ie, takeaways, lots of bread, biscuits and so on, but now I have to think about what I eat, work out what I eat, and savour it when I eat it, instead of just scoffing it.
I was a bit pee'd off last night..I am allowed 15 syns a day, and I saved all 15 so I could have a 4 finger kit kat, which is 11 syns, the first finger was all bloody chocolate, now usually that would be great lol but when dieting noooooo. I bet it added 8 more syns to the bloody thing.
Tonight is weigh in night, so keep your fingers crossed :-) I'll update later.
My daughter started with me, and I have been good all week, I have eaten so much more than I usually do, but all good stuff, tons of fruit, veg, and salad. I don't hate these foods at all, in fact I prefer them, I guess I always went for the easy route when it came to eating.. ie, takeaways, lots of bread, biscuits and so on, but now I have to think about what I eat, work out what I eat, and savour it when I eat it, instead of just scoffing it.
I was a bit pee'd off last night..I am allowed 15 syns a day, and I saved all 15 so I could have a 4 finger kit kat, which is 11 syns, the first finger was all bloody chocolate, now usually that would be great lol but when dieting noooooo. I bet it added 8 more syns to the bloody thing.
Tonight is weigh in night, so keep your fingers crossed :-) I'll update later.
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
Fat cow!
Yep thats what I am, a fat cow. Paul McKenna didn't work.
I gave up smoking and now I am putting on loads of weight, I was big to start with but now since the 28th Feb I have put on over a stone, yup 1 bloody stone, over!
I have always faught <<<(is that a word) with either dieting or giving up smoking, usually dieting won, but alas I have never been good at dieting, love my food too much, so as the years passed, I have eaten too much added with smoking too much, and as I have got older, (and not liking to admit that :-( ) It'S now got to the stage where health comes into play much more.
So the smoking went, and I have no problem with cravings, so thats all gone, finished, forgotten. Now the dieting has to come into play, I don't exercise, and eat way too much, so this week it will change, on Thursday I will join Slimming World, for the 5th or 6th time, but this time I know I can do it, If I can give up the weed in favour of health, then I can change my way of eating, and do more exercise.
On Thursday I will put my starting weight here...Gulp! And will do it out in the open, so people can read it.
I gave up smoking and now I am putting on loads of weight, I was big to start with but now since the 28th Feb I have put on over a stone, yup 1 bloody stone, over!
I have always faught <<<(is that a word) with either dieting or giving up smoking, usually dieting won, but alas I have never been good at dieting, love my food too much, so as the years passed, I have eaten too much added with smoking too much, and as I have got older, (and not liking to admit that :-( ) It'S now got to the stage where health comes into play much more.
So the smoking went, and I have no problem with cravings, so thats all gone, finished, forgotten. Now the dieting has to come into play, I don't exercise, and eat way too much, so this week it will change, on Thursday I will join Slimming World, for the 5th or 6th time, but this time I know I can do it, If I can give up the weed in favour of health, then I can change my way of eating, and do more exercise.
On Thursday I will put my starting weight here...Gulp! And will do it out in the open, so people can read it.
Even if its just one person that reads it, it will help me, I'm sure.
Wish me luck :-D xx
Monday, 6 April 2009
Blimey
Is it April already? Where does the time go?
I'm still off the ciggies, and don't even want one, not using anything to help either, damn I wish I would have been this good 30 years ago lol.
BUT and its a bloody BIG BUT. (or BUTT lol) I am eating way too much, I knew this would happen, so not too shocked about it, so I bought Paul McKenns's book and cd on How he can make me thin, doubt I will ever be 'thin' but slim would be good, slimmer than what I am anyway.
Last night I lay in bed, all alone and put on my Ipod. to listen to PM, and omg, I couldn't believe his voice, its started off normal, then slowly got lower and lower, it was amazing, and lovely to listen to, so fingers crossed its the start of a new me :) or should I say the second start :) ( adding in the non smoking of course)
Will keep you all up to date with it.
I'm still off the ciggies, and don't even want one, not using anything to help either, damn I wish I would have been this good 30 years ago lol.
BUT and its a bloody BIG BUT. (or BUTT lol) I am eating way too much, I knew this would happen, so not too shocked about it, so I bought Paul McKenns's book and cd on How he can make me thin, doubt I will ever be 'thin' but slim would be good, slimmer than what I am anyway.
Last night I lay in bed, all alone and put on my Ipod. to listen to PM, and omg, I couldn't believe his voice, its started off normal, then slowly got lower and lower, it was amazing, and lovely to listen to, so fingers crossed its the start of a new me :) or should I say the second start :) ( adding in the non smoking of course)
Will keep you all up to date with it.
Monday, 30 March 2009
Arrggghh
I work with 4 other women/girls at work, Daryl needs 2 carers at a time, I get on with 3 very well but one I don't.
Well yesterday I had a double shift with her, that was 13 and a half hours with her, and OH MY FUCKING GOD, how the hell she has survived to the age of 29 I have not got a fucking clue,I can't be the only one that she pisses off greatly, (I know she pisses off the other girls we work with). And as you know I have given up smoking... Yesterday I nearly started smoking again because of her.
ARRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Friday, 27 March 2009
I lied
But not on purpose. I asked someone if this site was good for blogs, and he said yes, so my first blog was called obviously 'My first blog here'. Thinking it was, well no it wasnt, I blogged here once last year. I sorry about that.
I'm still trying to work this place out, how to put links up etc.
Will give it another week.
I'm still trying to work this place out, how to put links up etc.
Will give it another week.
A bit of a moan.
This is my last day off before the weekend, I've been off sick, litertally. But on Saturday I'm working 9.30am till 11pm and Sunday I'm working 9.30am, till 10.30pm.
I really dont mind, as I love my job, its just the people I work with..well one in particular, I have all of Sunday with her, I'll be pulling me hair out by the end of the day lol.
I watched a programme last night Called Trophy Kids, it was awful, young kids with talent being pushed, and I mean pushed by thier parents, what idiots the parents are, one has even taken his son out of school, and wont let him play out with other kids...Abuse is what I call it.
I really dont mind, as I love my job, its just the people I work with..well one in particular, I have all of Sunday with her, I'll be pulling me hair out by the end of the day lol.
I watched a programme last night Called Trophy Kids, it was awful, young kids with talent being pushed, and I mean pushed by thier parents, what idiots the parents are, one has even taken his son out of school, and wont let him play out with other kids...Abuse is what I call it.
Thursday, 26 March 2009
A bit about me.
I suppose I cant just comment on tv programmes...can I? Nah there is more to me than just that...not much more, but a bit.
I am 48, though I really don't feel it inside, it shocks me to think that next year I'll be 50. OMFG 50!!!
I have a 23 year old daughter, she is beautiful and she has a wonderful personality, I am so very proud of her. She is on holiday in Benidorm at the moment.
I have a partner, his name is Mark, he is 42, yup a toyboy hehe, he has M.E (Cronic fatigue syndrome) and to be honest its get's us both down at times.
My job..I am a private carer for Daryl, he is 25, and has servere Cerebral Palsy and unless you have known him a while its hard to understand what he say's. He is the most lovely, happy, wonderful person you could meet, I am proud of him and love the fact he calls my mummy karen :-).
I am 48, though I really don't feel it inside, it shocks me to think that next year I'll be 50. OMFG 50!!!
I have a 23 year old daughter, she is beautiful and she has a wonderful personality, I am so very proud of her. She is on holiday in Benidorm at the moment.
I have a partner, his name is Mark, he is 42, yup a toyboy hehe, he has M.E (Cronic fatigue syndrome) and to be honest its get's us both down at times.
My job..I am a private carer for Daryl, he is 25, and has servere Cerebral Palsy and unless you have known him a while its hard to understand what he say's. He is the most lovely, happy, wonderful person you could meet, I am proud of him and love the fact he calls my mummy karen :-).
The Girls Next Door
I have just watched The Girls Next Door, Girls of the playboy mansion, and something one of them said at the end made me look online to see what has happened, and OMG thay have all split up.
I'm probably the last to know, but I am very shocked, and Kendra is getting married, wow.
Good luck to them all.
I'm probably the last to know, but I am very shocked, and Kendra is getting married, wow.
Good luck to them all.
Watching tv
I watched the apprentice last night, they all seem a bunch of w*****s, why they would want to put themselves through that I dont know, ok maybe money and fame, but why humiliate yourself in front of millions.
Mind you I do love to watch it, Sir Alan makes me laugh, he is great. I did hear it maybe his last series, because he wants a good worker and not someone who wants fame, so why do it on tv then?
Eastenders tonight, and its beginning to get on my nerves with the Ronnie and Danielle story, as usual they drag it out for months. JUST FUCKING TELL HER!!!
Hehe.
Mind you I do love to watch it, Sir Alan makes me laugh, he is great. I did hear it maybe his last series, because he wants a good worker and not someone who wants fame, so why do it on tv then?
Eastenders tonight, and its beginning to get on my nerves with the Ronnie and Danielle story, as usual they drag it out for months. JUST FUCKING TELL HER!!!
Hehe.
Wednesday, 25 March 2009
My first blog here
This is my first blog here, I've been trying out a few sites, so fingers crossed this will be the one for me. I know someone who post's here so thanks James :-)
I've called my blogs moans and groans, though not all will be me moaning lol, but I have noticed as I get older I moan more, and I can always hear myself doing it, and wanting to stop, but don't lol...Omg a female victor meldrew :-(
Anyway that will do for now.
I've called my blogs moans and groans, though not all will be me moaning lol, but I have noticed as I get older I moan more, and I can always hear myself doing it, and wanting to stop, but don't lol...Omg a female victor meldrew :-(
Anyway that will do for now.
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